Category Archives: Quiet Time

Cheapened Love

“We can’t help what we feel!”
“We cannot control who we fall in love with!”

Cheap words. Cheap perspectives. Cheap love.

Love is an action (you choose to patient. You choose to be kind. You choose to sacrifice, etc.), a choice you make.

You chose to love.

Those words lack of accountability. Relationships with these type of beliefs start and end bitterly because it is based on feelings – there is no discipline, no responsibility towards self and the other.

That is not love.

If love is simply a hedonistic feeling, changing ever with the flow of the tide, circumstances and whatnot – Christ would have never died for us. Truly, because were never worth saving.

The ultimate sacrifice of Christ gives us our worth – not the other way around.

Honor God with our bodies as a living sacrifice. That includes giving all our heart and soul to Him, and choosing to love others the same way He loves us.

Not based on feelings.

But true, actual, genuine love.

“I may speak in different languages of people or even angels. But if I do not have love, I am only a noisy bell or a crashing cymbal. I may have the gift of prophecy. I may understand all the secret things of God and have all knowledge, and I may have faith so great I can move mountains. But even with all these things, if I do not have love, then I am nothing. I may give away everything I have, and I may even give my body as an offering to be burned. But I gain nothing if I do not have love.
Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous, it does not brag, and it is not proud. Love is not rude, is not selfish, and does not get upset with others. Love does not count up wrongs that have been done. Love takes no pleasure in evil but rejoices over the truth. Love patiently accepts all things. It always trusts, always hopes, and always endures.
Love never ends. There are gifts of prophecy, but they will be ended. There are gifts of speaking in different languages, but those gifts will stop. There is the gift of knowledge, but it will come to an end.  The reason is that our knowledge and our ability to prophesy are not perfect.  But when perfection comes, the things that are not perfect will end.  When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I stopped those childish ways.  It is the same with us. Now we see a dim reflection, as if we were looking into a mirror, but then we shall see clearly. Now I know only a part, but then I will know fully, as God has known me.  So these three things continue forever: faith, hope, and love. And the greatest of these is love.” – 1 Corinthians 13 (NCV)

Familiar

Now the LORD said to Abram, “Go from your country and your kindred and your father’s house to the land that I will show you.” – Genesis 12:1 (ESV)

As humans, it’s natural for us to gravitate towards the familiar. Even after a shakeup in our lives, we always return to the comfort of the old routines, following the way we are used to living as we had before.

But what if you received Word from God, telling you to go wherever He tells you?

God gave such a command to Abram. He did not specify a place, but simply told him to go to the land that He will show him.

Although Abram was not familiar with a place that God would show him, Abram was familiar with God.

Are we familiar with God? Or are we more familiar with what we see, the general life we tend to live daily, the routines we unconsciously or religiously devote ourselves to?

When we become familiar with God, we tend to gravitate more to Him. As we grow closer in our relationship, growing to know Him more, we become more dependent on Him.

This is the kind of progress we need to have in our lives, the kind of trust that Abram had in God.

He calls each of us into the same journey as Abram did – maybe not into a new country, but definitely out of our comfort zones. My hope and prayer is that you will follow His calling, that your faith will not fail – for He who holds you in His hands is faithful.

Let’s begin each day with prayer and praise to follow Him. Do not fear – He who began this good work in you will finish it (Philippians 1:6)!

For His Name

“O LORD my God, you have performed many wonders for us. Your plans for us are too numerous to list. You have no equal. If I tried to recite all your wonderful deeds, I would never come to the end of them.” -Psalm 40:5 NLT

The Psalmist declares that God is worthy of our praise. All the things He has done, all He does, and all that He will do, is worthy of our praise and declaration.

I recently have been living in this attitude of thankfulness. I am the type of person who finds little things to complain about – from the bus being late, to the rain during Memorial Day, and things like how people walk so slowly on the sidewalk (It’s New York!!!! I want to shout at them).

But something happened yesterday that made me realize how much God has done for me that I cannot even fully list. It wasn’t anything dramatic. It happened when it was just myself and three friends in the car, singing along to a Hillsong – Ocean (Where Feet May Fail).

I cried while singing it. Not just because it reminded me of how far He has brought me. That brief slice in time reminded me that becoming deaf took away something simple and yet profoundly meaningful to me – singing along with others, listening to music together, sharing in that moment.

But as I sang, I was reminded of all the things He did. Did you know that the learning and use of sign language has been strongly discouraged since the 1880s? Yet God has blessed me with people who strongly advocated for me to learn sign language. I even had a sign language interpreter since 5th grade while growing up in a mainstreamed school!

He did much more than that! I had many supportive teachers who encouraged me and blessed me. I have a family who believe in my capacity to do well, who supported me when I wanted to pursue different activities (e.g., Kumdo, teaching, etc.). I serve in churches filled with people who honor God and encourages my faith.

He has brought me through all my trials and made a path for me through the opposition of people who looked down on me because of my disability or because I was young. He strengthened my faith. He blessed me with times of rest. He supported me throughout my years as I worked to completed the Dual MAT program. He has provided me all that I needed and more.

I cannot tell you everything that He has done, what He is doing, and what He will do. But I know this, He will continue to do many more wonderful things because He loves me, and because of Christ, who died for me.

Know that God who began this good work in you will finish it (Philippians 1:6)! He will do all these things for His Name’s sake (Psalm 23:3).

Praise the Lord.

What Do You Love the Most?

You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your might.” – Deuteronomy 6:5 ESV

We are allowed to love – family, friends, animals. But we are called to love God above all. For when we love God so much more than anything else, we change for the better. In a way, we become what we love.

Our utmost hope, our whole love should be in someone eternal, someone who is unchanging, who is love (1 John 4:8).

In these last days, are you prepared to receive Him? When you calls you home, are you ready to receive Him with a joyful expectation?

Or do your thoughts focus on the things you have here on earth? Leave them in His care.

In One Word

“For we are God’s masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so we can do the good things he planned for us long ago.” – Ephesians 2:10 NLT

I’ve been asked several times at different points in my life this one question that had always vexed me. “Describe yourself in one word. What would it be?”

As always, when asked, I struggled to find the answer. The problem is, my identity was always changing. Before, I was a hearing person; now I am a deaf person. Previously, I was a Kumdo student. Now I am learning basic Krav Maga.

How do I define and describe myself? Which parts of myself do I see as a more defining area of my life? My career? I am currently pursuing a teaching degree. My family relationships? I am a daughter and a sister. My disability? I am deaf. My ability? I can speak clearly. Who am I really?

Paul confidentially declares in Ephesians 1:1 and other letters: “I am an apostle of Christ Jesus.” His identity was Christ and Christ alone.

What does this even mean? I have been pondering over that question more frequently as the years pass by. I thought of Jesus’ Sermon on the Mount (Matthew 5-7). I mulled over His perfect obedience to Father’s will. Then I realized this.

Christ is the cornerstone of our Christian faith. He came to serve, not to be served. He knew what his foreordained purpose was: to give His life as a ransom for all (Matthew 20:28). Christ is our Redeemer! (Galatians 3:13-14; Ephesians 1:7, etc.).

And so now when I reflect on that question, today, I can confidentially say without hesitation in one word:

“Redeemed.”

The Poor Widow’s Offering

The Poor Widow’s Offering

“Jesus sat down opposite the place where the offerings were put and watched the crowd putting their money into the temple treasury. Many rich people threw in large amounts. But a poor widow came and put in two very small copper coins, worth only a few cents.

Calling his disciples to him, Jesus said, “Truly I tell you, this poor widow has put more into the treasury than all the others. They all gave out of their wealth; but she, out of her poverty, put in everything—all she had to live on.”” – Mark 12:41-44 NIV

It was during Thanksgiving week. Up until now, I’ve been living well. I’ve always had a roof over my head, and never went hungry. I was able to complete my college education, and looking back, I see that the Lord has indeed been good to me. I never lacked opportunities for work.

In this, I am blessed.

While watching people give offerings and tithes to God, I was reminded of this verse.

No matter what happens, my hope and prayer is that I will never forget God – His goodness, His abundance, even in times of desperate need. May I follow the widow’s example – even in need, Lord, I pray that I will always honor You first with all I am and with all I have.

The Hand of the Lord is On Me

When I am feeling like I don’t have the courage I need to live boldly and bravely, I think about this verse in Ezra below.

Because the hand of the Lord my God was on me, I took courage and gathered leaders from Israel to go up with me. (Ezra 7:28b)

But when you read this verse, it makes you think: what does the hand of God on your life look like? We know the effects of the hand of God being on you: courage, boldness, drive, and determination– all things that we want for our lives because it gives us a purpose greater than our current state of life. But really, when the Hand of God is on you, what does that look like? The reason I ask this question today is because so many of us have the hand of God on our lives, but we don’t notice it and we therefore we have this favor and blessing from God and do nothing with it and our lives virtually appears like life without the Hand of God touching us.

When Israel (Jacob) wrestled with God and was touched by God, he had courage to move forward with his plan in confronting his older brother, from whom he stole the birthright. When the Apostle Paul was touched by God on the road to Damascus, his life purpose transformed from persecutor to gospel proclaimer. In both instances, when the Hand of God was upon them, quite literally, they experienced and realized their shortcomings and their handicaps. Yet, in their hearts, they knew they had a job to do, they had a purpose their lives were headed for.

You see, when the Hand of the Lord is on you and me, we see everything we cannot do and all the reasons why we shouldn’t, but we also realize that the dream we have within us just can’t be shaken away because God puts it there. God reminds us of it. It is there and then that we know that the Hand of God is on you and me and that we should have courage. To gather the people around us and share that dream and purpose and go set out to accomplish what God put on our heart. I bet despite your shortcomings and all the naysayers, you have a dream God gave you and you just can’t shake it. Now you’re at that place where you need to jump off and move forward– God’s hand is on you. It was on you the moment Jesus took up that cross and said, “it is finished.” It was on you the moment the heavens and earth was moved by God to send His son Jesus as ransom for our lives. We can’t forget that. Our shortcomings mean nothing to God; His hand is on us. Have courage and go with me to accomplish the dreams God gives to you.

Deal-Breakers

So therefore, any one of you who does not renounce all that he has cannot be my disciple. (Luke 14:33 ESV)

Have you ever thought to yourself: what if I give up everything? Moreover, can I give up everything? Our maybe even just somethings? If Jesus said this to me, I would cry. Most things I can live without, but if I had to give up my phone or my computer, I may call that a deal-breaker. In fact, you may even say that those things that we hang on to, define us. As a result, they are deal-breakers.

I’m sure you have deal-breakers in your life as well. Whether it’s your phone, car, job, home, relationships, coffee, etc; we all have something, when pushed, that would make us seriously question whether we would give it up and follow Jesus.

None of us are really that extreme, are we? I know I’m not. But Jesus wants us to be extreme, extremely in love with him so that we would be defined by love–his love. His love that saves by grace for people who don’t deserve it.

I want us to consider the deal-breakers we have in life that stop us from wholeheartedly following Jesus and ask yourself: are these things really worth it? Does our salvation and our relationship with God amount to less than our deal-breaker? Jesus wants us to pursue him with everything we have, and if we can’t give up something we have for him, we may lose out on everything we have to offer God in our lives.

How Good We Are

“Why do you call me good?” Jesus answered. “No one is good–except God alone.” – Luke 18:19 NIV

I feel like laughing every time someone says they are a good person. Isn’t that what everyone in the world believes of themselves (and to some degree – of others)?

Jesus was making a point when He responded to a religious leader (who would have been well regarded as a “good” man) calling Him “good” teacher.

We all have our own standards of what makes a “good” person. And the truth is – those standards do not mean anything. A rapist can consider himself a good person, because he is not as bad as murderer. A white collar criminal may consider himself good, because at least he does not commit violent crimes.

In the end, the more you think about it, the more you will realize that our belief of our own goodness comes from comparing ourselves to others. It comes from what we perceive to be the greater evil, of pointing fingers at those we consider to be in morally worse state than ourselves.

The only standard of who is good – is God alone.

How good we are?

 

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Not Perfect

Perfection is overrated. Perfection is unrealistic. Each of us have our own understanding of what constitutes perfection – standards that are unattainable – which are imposed on situations, people and selves.

The idea of perfection varies. In the end, it comes down to our own perceptions. What is ideal in our own eyes.

I think there should be only one standard of perfection for Christians: Jesus Christ.

Why was He perfect?

Simple. He did not sin. No wrong was found in Him (Hebrews 4:15).

Unfortunately, we tend to hold others to our ideas of perfection. And when those standards are not met – some of us tend to become … well … not someone we want to be around.

The point is that we don’t approach God because we are perfect in our own eyes. We approach God because we are not perfect – and through Jesus, we are made holy before God.

Perfect.

 

-Grace